何去何从,同志们!Where are you going, gay?

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Where are you going, gay?


Sometimes as a gay guy I am utterly confused of where to go and what to do---endless pressure from parents about the marriage thing; unpredictable relationships which almost make me lose my faith in love; deep inside a sense of vanity that leads me to doubt the meaning of my existence. Where would I be in 20 years’ time? Living with a girl and my kids waiting for the coming of my death? Or spending the rest of my life with a guy I love and care? Is it possible at all to find such a guy? What about my parents? Are they going to fall apart if I told them about my sexual orientation? Are my friends and neighbors going to laugh at me? Will my life be ruined? Alas, indeed it’s hard to be gay, especially in China.

For many times I suffer from sleeplessness and even nightmares. How much I wish I were straight! I know I can not screw up my life. This is my life. I have to self-control. Yet, easier said than done. Once upon a time I fooled around with an addiction to SEX. I had too much sex and slept with ridiculously many guys. Looking back, this hurts. I feel like I was no better than an animal which has no moral restriction in their kingdom. A male dog can fuck any female dog if they want. I was self-questioning that am I a dog? Or do I want to be a dog? Where is my human dignity? Finally I put a stop to the stupid one-night-stand and junk sex. My life came back to normal.

And of course another difference human make from animals is that we always pursue affection, or, put in a sweeter way, LOVE. Without it we can hardly breathe, just like a fish driven out of the pool. We feel great when we are connected to someone. We recover much faster from a bad cold when your beloved one is with you. We feel at the top of the world when we have sex with the one you love, not with someone you do not know at all. It’s amazing to be in love.

Some folks might challenge me by saying that love is a shadow. It does not exist in reality. And even though you find it, it never endures. Is that true?

My experience tells me that love is reachable. Life is love. Love is God. My enlightenment can be dated back to the day I met my Mr. Right. We fell in love. It was so unbelievable that I still remember vividly about the smile he had that day. From then on I feel incomplete without him. I realize that in this wild world there is someone that I should hold responsibility for. Few things are more rewarding than that. We are attracted to each other. We do have differences or quarrels. All we need is tolerance to resolve them.

As gay people, we do not want to stand alone all of our lives. Our parents are going to pass away one day. We might have no kids in the future. It is sure that we need a companionship when we are over the hill. Isn’t it nice to talk a walk with your Mr. Right by the West Lake when you are 60 or 70? Let’s go for it, from this moment on. Everyone can make a difference.
Where are we going? We are going home full of love. But do not go astray.
The best of luck to everyone of you.

[ 本帖最后由 Inn-club 于 2007-7-5 22:55 编辑 ]
mike | 2007-7-3 23:26 | 显示全部楼层
天書,英語太好了~~
血王子 | 2007-7-3 23:28 | 显示全部楼层
下面是用YAHOO翻译所译的:
有时如同一个快乐人我完全地迷茫的何处去并且什么对做不尽的压力从父母关于婚姻事; 几乎使我丢失我的信念在爱的变化莫测的关系; 深在带领我怀疑我的存在的意思虚荣里面的感觉。我在哪里会是在20 years'-time? 居住与女孩和我的孩子等来临我的死亡? 或消费剩余我的生活以人I 爱和关心? 它是可能根本找到这样人吗? 怎么样我的父母? 他们散开如果我告诉了他们关于我的性取向? 我的朋友和邻居嘲笑我吗? 我的生活将被破坏吗? 呀, 它的确是困难是快乐, 特别是在中国。 许多次我遭受失眠和甚而恶梦。多少我祝愿我是平直的! 我知道我无法弄糟我的生活。这是我的生活。我必须自我控制。然而, 说得容易。我从前无所事事以瘾对性。我有许多性和与许多人可笑地睡觉。看后面, 这伤害。我感到如我比没有道德制约在他们的王国的动物没有好。一条公狗能与任一条母狗性交如果他们要。我自已问那是我狗? 或我想要是狗吗? 我人的尊严在哪里是? 我最后投入了中止对愚笨一夜站立和破烂物性。我的生活回来了对法线。 并且当然其它区别人由动物做是, 我们总追求喜爱, 或, 投入在一个更甜的方式, 爱。没有它我们能几乎不呼吸, 象鱼被驾驶在水池外面。我们感到伟大当我们被联系到某人。我们从重感冒快速地恢复当您心爱你是以您。我们感觉在世界的上面当我们有性以那个您爱, 不是与某人您不知道根本。它是令人惊讶的恋爱了。 一些伙计也许向我挑战由说, 爱是阴影。它不存在实际上。并且即使您发现它, 它从未忍受。那是真实的吗? 我的经验告诉我, 爱是可及的。生活是爱。爱是上帝。我的启示可能建于我遇见我的先生Right 的天。我们恋爱。它是很难以相信的, 我生动地仍然记住关于他有那天的微笑。从然后我感觉残缺不全没有他。我意识到, 在这个狂放的世界里有某人我应该举行责任为。少量事是有价值比那。我们被吸引互相。我们有区别或争吵。所有我们需要是容忍解决他们。 象快乐人民, 我们不想要单独并肩作战所有我们的生活。我们的父母渡过一天。我们没有也许在将来有孩子。它是肯定的, 我们需要陪伴当我们是在小山。不好谈步行与您的先生Right 由西方湖吗? 放弃了为它, 从这片刻。大家可能产生变化。 我们何处去? 我们充分回家爱。但不要迷路
路人 | 2007-7-3 23:30 | 显示全部楼层
::41:: ::41:: ::41:: ::41:: ::41::
好多字
mike | 2007-7-3 23:32 | 显示全部楼层
是不是亂翻的啊?
血王子 | 2007-7-3 23:32 | 显示全部楼层
原帖由 mike 于 2007-7-3 23:32 发表
是不是亂翻的啊?

我咋知道啊,问YAHOO公司去~~~~!
Inn-club | 2007-7-3 23:33 | 显示全部楼层
翻译是机械的,写作是灵活的.
mike | 2007-7-3 23:34 | 显示全部楼层
你看第一句就翻了不通順的~
果冻 | 2007-7-3 23:35 | 显示全部楼层
翻了也看的累死::22::
mike | 2007-7-3 23:36 | 显示全部楼层
原帖由 Inn-club 于 2007-7-3 23:33 发表
翻译是机械的,写作是灵活的.

嗯,你寫了太好了~~佩服佩服!能不能教我英語啊~~
Inn-club | 2007-7-3 23:41 | 显示全部楼层

回复 #10 mike 的帖子

以后我会经常写些东西发上来和大家分享的.
请大家不要误会,我用英文写不是其他的目的.
只是在国外呆久了,看的书都是英语的,写作也基本用英文.
我知道自己可以用中文,
但是我发现自己用中文表达不出那种真切的感受.
很抱歉.这只是一种方式,请不要上升到爱国主义.
我很爱国,我也很爱世界
谢谢YAHOO的翻译,虽然不是很精确

[ 本帖最后由 Inn-club 于 2007-7-3 23:42 编辑 ]
mike | 2007-7-3 23:42 | 显示全部楼层
呃呃呃......我是說麼,翻了不對!
血王子 | 2007-7-3 23:44 | 显示全部楼层
原帖由 mike 于 2007-7-3 23:42 发表
呃呃呃......我是說麼,翻了不對!

那你翻翻看啊~~~~~!
mike | 2007-7-3 23:46 | 显示全部楼层
原帖由 血王子 于 2007-7-3 23:44 发表

那你翻翻看啊~~~~~!

我英語好,就不會叫他教我了!::34:: ::34::
你欺負我麼!!!
血王子 | 2007-7-3 23:46 | 显示全部楼层
原帖由 mike 于 2007-7-3 23:46 发表

我英語好,就不會叫他教我了!::34:: ::34::
你欺負我麼!!!

::6:: ::6::
我米有欺负你啊,你不要冤枉我啊~~~~!
::5:: ::5::
mike | 2007-7-3 23:50 | 显示全部楼层
原帖由 血王子 于 2007-7-3 23:46 发表

::6:: ::6::
我米有欺负你啊,你不要冤枉我啊~~~~!
::5:: ::5::

嘿嘿~~那就好,你不要叫我翻了!允浩笑起來比較好看!
夜交藤 | 2007-7-3 23:51 | 显示全部楼层
天哪,国际化全球化
mike | 2007-7-3 23:52 | 显示全部楼层
原帖由 夜交藤 于 2007-7-3 23:51 发表
天哪,国际化全球化

嗯,現在我們要多元化!
夜交藤 | 2007-7-3 23:54 | 显示全部楼层
原帖由 mike 于 2007-7-3 23:36 发表

嗯,你寫了太好了~~佩服佩服!能不能教我英語啊~~

表教他,他有企图滴::38:: ::38:: ::38:: ::38::
mike | 2007-7-3 23:55 | 显示全部楼层
原帖由 夜交藤 于 2007-7-3 23:54 发表

表教他,他有企图滴::38:: ::38:: ::38:: ::38::

你嘎壞地!
血王子 | 2007-7-3 23:55 | 显示全部楼层
原帖由 夜交藤 于 2007-7-3 23:54 发表

表教他,他有企图滴::38:: ::38:: ::38:: ::38::

那教我好了~~~~~~~~~~!
吓死挖
看不懂
mike | 2007-7-3 23:56 | 显示全部楼层
原帖由 血王子 于 2007-7-3 23:55 发表

那教我好了~~~~~~~~~~!

yahoo可以教你的!
血王子 | 2007-7-3 23:56 | 显示全部楼层
原帖由 mike 于 2007-7-3 23:56 发表

yahoo可以教你的!

我还有金山呢~~~~~~!
mike | 2007-7-3 23:57 | 显示全部楼层
原帖由 血王子 于 2007-7-3 23:56 发表

我还有金山呢~~~~~~!

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